Games.

How long has it been? Hmm. I can actually count the years I delved into this expensive addiction. Not only was I addicted, I was also immersed in the "worlds" which were portrayed in the games. Making myself self deluded and ... confused?

For years I struggled to release myself from its vise. The harder I tried pulling myself free, the tighter its hold around me. And as I settled back in, its grip released, enjoying the comfort of my online mates, I continued gaming, pouring thousands of hours into something which I knew was worthless and completely useless for my future.

Looking back, I've been unknowingly addicted to entertainment since I was a small child. More or less by the age of 8 or 9, I've already been exposed to computer games. Computer games were something I would always look forward to playing. It was something that.. brought you out from this life.. this world and put you in a place where you could control, freely, had many lives.. all a big lie.

I suppose I woke up from a dream in which I have overslept for an extremely long time. People could say "I grew out of it" or that "I got bored of it". But for myself, I could say I chose. It was difficult, there was a time where the withdrawal symtoms came. But all in all, I was set free from it. As I realised how bland, pathetic and just vain, it actually was I just thought to myself, how could I not see it? How could I be so blind? It was absolutely amazing when God allowed me to see right through it. When I was in it, i couldn't see, blinded by what was before me. Now that I can see. It would be something which I would never step my foot in again.

Well, I'm not saying games are bad. Computer Games have been created to entertain, relief (in a sense) and to bring joy (in a worldly manner). Too much of it would suck you in, and slowly dissolve you from the inside. Until your totally hollow, possibly just a shell. Yeah its that bad. Work hard. Play hard. Seek God harder.