Purpose.

The reason to live. The thing that drives us on. What pushes to do what we do. Making money? Getting a wife? Getting the best job? Having a family? Well i think that those things are all part of the program in which God has instore for us.

My purpose, to live out my life for God. Well, looking at it from a normal perspective, anyone could say whoa! your gonna be a minister? pastor? I'd reply no. Selling yourself out for God is something that.. you do daily. Every moment, every choice, every turn of events. At times, I'd think that, I'm too caught up in my work, too stressed out, too drained. But knowing that God's right there for you, right behind you in everything that you do. And He's proud.. extremely proud when you put your best into it, whether it works out or not, whether everything will go according to plan or not, He's prepared something for us at the end.. something which we won't see from the begining. And at certain moments, I tend forget that it was never the outcome of anything i did. But the process of which I did it. The experience i garnered from things which i put my hands to. Though it would have been short sighted of me not to think of the final outcome, but enjoying the experience, eventhough its routine -i'd make it not routine, i'd change the way I work, change the perspectives i view my work from, thinking, improvising, innovating, always keeping it fresh so i can squeeze everything i can from my work.

It's something that would never be simple. Something thats always been a reminder to what i can do and how i can do it. A challenge in which im charging head on.

Giving Thanks

Sometimes I feel, Your the only one which truly understands me; the only one whom can deliver me from this turmoil. Once again perhaps I've misplaced my foot, and fell. But Your grace is always there. Your hand always stretched out. How can I ever thank You enough?

Given unto You everything, have I? Holding on to nothing; my hands are empty. I look up and all I see is Your face. Smiling. I look down. I see my hands in Yours. Yes, Your always with me; guiding my every step. Never will I doubt again. Nor will I do anything in my own might. No. Its by Your Spirit, that anything can be done.

So,

All that has happend.. all happend for a cause. All that will happen.. has already been planned out. In my heart. I pray that in everything which I have prayed and fasted for, Father, I pray that they come to pass according to Your Divine Will.

Once again,

I have come to the place. Where theres only You and me. Wonderous. Nothing tangible or intagible could ever compare to this. No. Nothing at all. Only have I wondered why I have to learn lessons the hard way; cause You knew that it was the only way.

Thus,

I thank You once again. For everything. Yes. Everything which You have given, everything that is to come. For always being with me, guiding, and teaching. I thank You.